ANTM..=)

Soooo..I went to the ANTM call @Pentagon this past Saturday, which was totally outta my character becauseI'm usually a shy &reseved person, but modeling is a hobby I am really trying to break i nto, so every little bit of expoure or experience will be helpful for me. I entered into this contest..so please visit the site &vote for me as many times as you want! http://www.dc50tv.com/community/topmodelauditions/picturecontest/

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Washington's Top Beauty Picture Contest

Saturday, 7/11 auditions

Gallery #6 Picture #26

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Demetrius Delonte Matthews [O6.1O.88-O5.17.2OO9]

the hardest thing i ever had to do..was read this to you. stood right next to you, as thetears fell. &we said our final goodbyes. i miss you so much &it's just the beginning. i remember when we said our love was never ending. we shared so many memories in such little time. i remember may 27,2006 when you told me you wanted to be mine. now that date will never be the same again. i feel so misunderstood &confused because we shared so many dreams, so why'd our nightmares have to come true? you remember what i would say when you asked me how much i loved you? i'd say more than all the stars in the sky. and now it's those same stars every night that make me cry. you were my partner in crime, we used to laugh cuz we never got caught. now that i have to wonder how life will be without you i'm so distraught. i wish this was just like any other time we fought. when we'd be mad for awhile, but you'd always

come back. i keep waiting, when are you coming back?

don't you remember where your heart lies? i'm standing right here with tears falling

from my eyes. i thought you hated to see me cry, well that's all i've been doing.

i'm tryna be strong, but it's so hard to lose someone you always thought would be there. i just want you to know how much i care..though, eventually i may heal, this broken heart can never be fully repaired.

Lady Gaga'The Fame' &Drake'So Far Gone'

"Put On Your Poker face, I'll Put Your Card If You're Bluffin" -Drake

"Do You Want Love Or You Want Fame?" - Lady Gaga

She's Badd. He's

On Top..They're

On The Rise!

One Word

If there was a word to describe

I would feel complete.

I wouldn't wonder why I love 

you so much.

I wouldn't ask myself  how, 

I'd think of that word and simply smile.

If I knew a word that could describe you.

And how you make me feel, I'd put your

name in the dictionary right next to it.

Whenever I had doubts or worries,

I'd say that word to myself and feel 

no fear.

Because I know that you would never

hurt me. 

You'd never break my heart and leave 

it there..though many others have.

You never could even consider doing the same.

Because the love we share...is different.

it doesn't hide itself nor does it have any shame.

Our love is shown and our feelings do the same.

It may not be typical, but it feels so right.

Never will I second guess my love for you.

because deep down inside, I honestly adore you.

You amaze me with your kindness, honesty, and

generosity.

I feel lucky to have gotten this close to you,

and connect with you on this level.

Never will the day come..when I'll regret it.

I'm still searching for that word...and when I

find it ...I'll never forget it.

November 4th 08

I woke up @ 5:45 am! Took a look @ the clock, and laid back down, but for some reason I couldn't fall asleep. I knew today was election day, so I had to get up. I jumped in the shower, got dressed, and headed to Beacon Heights Elem. School(fifth grade whoo whoo!) The line was partially long, but not as bad as I expected. As I waited in line more and more people arrived and as the line grew..I noticed  how almost every face was African American. I tried to imagine the days when blacks were not even allowed to vote. However, I couldn't imagine living in a country where my opinion did not matter because of my race. I proudly watched as the elderly people were led to the front of the line and I was expecting some people to be angered by this. To my surprise, everyone was pleased to let the senior citizens cast their votes first. It amazed me how one man, one cause could bring such a strong feeling of unity. Not until that moment did I truly feel the significance of voting for the first time.

A Closer Look Into Me

Wanna see the real me?

so do I, but she's hidden

behind the girl on the outside.

She's screaming for acceptance,

but no one seems to care.

All she wants is love, someone

to always be there.

She comes out when my tears

start to fall.

But there's something in between,

blocking her, some type of wall.

She's seen hurt, pain, and sorrow.

I promised myself I wouldn't go through

that on another tomorrow.

So I held her back because she's just too

vulnerable, all she knows is how to love, and

love only leads to to disappointment.

I never wanted to feel that way again, so I had

to get rid of her, only for a while, but now it's been

so long..I don't know how to bring her back.

So do I keep portraying this person I've become or do

do I dig deep into myself and the old one, the real one.

As of right now...I'm confused and unsure so I guess I'll

just stay...-Dior

&& It Begins...

Just opened my eyes and realized there was something missing in my life. A previous love that had to be renewed..so I picked up my pen and paper & found you. I fell in love all over again..almost forgot how good this felt. All this stressing I've been doing, should have thought of you a long time ago. Doesn't matter now..all that matters is that we've found each other my love..& this time I'm not letting you go..